OMG! Tiring day today and I have a physics test tommrrow morning! GRRRRR going to study now will post tml or so :D

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Wow I cant believe that today I actually did math for the whole day!!! OMG!! Hahas okay now I really need to get some rest as I am having CCA tomrrow at 8am :(

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Wow finally back from a 3D2N camp! Alright really tired and honestly it was quite fun. The first day wasn't as fun as expected due to the boring talks we had but it was ok. We learned part of the Mass Dance (couple dance) on the first day and it went out NOT well. I do not know how to dance and worst still I cant see the CF's that were teaching us how to dance. However the day went smooth with a visit to the toilet :D anyways we had 5 whole hour of teambuilding which consist of games, games, and more games ....



Day 2 tarted outwith PT which was totally a failure lols as no one followed. Then we had to do area cleaning and my class had to clean the place near the rock wall which was already cleaned by the cleaners hahas so we just slacked there. Setting of to Pasir Ris park to have the amazing race was not pleasant at all. Rushing to pee and no toilets around and having to walk for 45 minutes with a full bladder is seriously not fun at all! Okay now the amazing race was an amazement. We walk all the way through the game and even so managed to complete 7 stations! while others ran here and there and some only managed to complete 4. And the day continues will the soul night part where we enjoyed the performence and also have to perform our cheer, which was a modified version of the MCS thingy...and lights out. Sleeping was bad at around 3am 2 cats were fighting at the basket ball court just below our sleeping area and it was VERY NOISY!!!

Day 3 breakfast and video viewing of YOG which was very boring and after that we did some YOG sports consisting of TKD, Archery, Judo, Wrestling, Fencing and Handball. During the wrestling part we got to see Timmy G or something the actor of the show The Pupil on channel 5! Hahas anyways after that was break camp and went to BBQ Chicken to have our lunch and GO HOME! Omg now sick so will end here though I know the post is boring hahas.

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Today, for some odd reason I don't know why so don't ask me. I am very very extremely moody. Woke up and felt sick but still dragged myself to school. When for chinese feeling pissed and GP feeling tired and angry and finally after hearing the lecturer scolding us to sit down when our seats are being occupied by another class I had to shout back stating my stand. I have no idea whats going on. Went for CCA later and felt like shit. Missed the qualifying timing by 1.9 seconds. Pissed cause I can arc my back enough for High Jump and pissed more that I can't put 10.5m for the Short Put thing. A 5kg and I cant' even throw 10.5m. Only reached somewhat above 7m. Back home on my com and play dota and still felt pissed. Keep doing stupid things and losing non stop. Don't really know what I am doing or what I should be doing. Really confused for something I don't know. I am going crazy soon. Stupid person acting as Rus or is Rus coming to my tag board and disturbing. I am sick and tired of all this shit. If I had a gun I will seriously bust your com up followed by you. I am currently still very pissed and I cannot go to bed. I am pissed for being what you can say un-fit or fat. I am sick and tried of just getting a C grade for 2.4km run/walk. I am sick and tired of school school and more school and finally I am MOST sick and tired of being confused and feeling the way I am now. I really do not know what to do and really want some answers on why I am feeling this way. My parents came back and keep asking me questions. Making so much noise. Noise now I really can't stand. Usually I would join them to watch shows but now hearing to TV sound irritates my ears and gives me a apoplectic feeling burning inside me. I do have to agree earlier today my CCA teacher made the meeting lively with his jokes my odd enough I did not or I can say could not bring myself to laugh at it. And to my classmates and friends that asked me why I am so moody and not myself today, I sincerely apologize that I cannot give you the answer as I myself have no idea why. My girlfriend advice me to sleep but I lie down on bed and still cannot go to sleep. WHAT IS GOING ON!!!!! SAVE ME..... What I really feel like doing is just taking a knife and slitting my wrist, but I know it will hurt my love ones more deeply. So that idea is off. What should I do? I am now freaking freaking confused and moody. What is going on...Anyways for all that I have said eariler in this post if any of you readers find it funny, stupid or lame I only have this sentence to say to you. Fu*k of and don't ever come back. And for people who knows how I feel and sympathize me I really much appriciate it and thank you sincerely from deep down in my heart. And now as for my love ones. Sorry if I had done things that hurt you. Now I think i'll try to get over this by being alone and just stone, not caring what is going on. Sorry.

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Okay I am really tired change of mind post on friday or saturday!



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Hais another day I am tired so will post tommrrow definitely hahas cause I heard that there is a physical fitness test lols. And there is a math test. Wish me luck! :D


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