Today, for some odd reason I don't know why so don't ask me. I am very very extremely moody. Woke up and felt sick but still dragged myself to school. When for chinese feeling pissed and GP feeling tired and angry and finally after hearing the lecturer scolding us to sit down when our seats are being occupied by another class I had to shout back stating my stand. I have no idea whats going on. Went for CCA later and felt like shit. Missed the qualifying timing by 1.9 seconds. Pissed cause I can arc my back enough for High Jump and pissed more that I can't put 10.5m for the Short Put thing. A 5kg and I cant' even throw 10.5m. Only reached somewhat above 7m. Back home on my com and play dota and still felt pissed. Keep doing stupid things and losing non stop. Don't really know what I am doing or what I should be doing. Really confused for something I don't know. I am going crazy soon. Stupid person acting as Rus or is Rus coming to my tag board and disturbing. I am sick and tired of all this shit. If I had a gun I will seriously bust your com up followed by you. I am currently still very pissed and I cannot go to bed. I am pissed for being what you can say un-fit or fat. I am sick and tried of just getting a C grade for 2.4km run/walk. I am sick and tired of school school and more school and finally I am MOST sick and tired of being confused and feeling the way I am now. I really do not know what to do and really want some answers on why I am feeling this way. My parents came back and keep asking me questions. Making so much noise. Noise now I really can't stand. Usually I would join them to watch shows but now hearing to TV sound irritates my ears and gives me a apoplectic feeling burning inside me. I do have to agree earlier today my CCA teacher made the meeting lively with his jokes my odd enough I did not or I can say could not bring myself to laugh at it. And to my classmates and friends that asked me why I am so moody and not myself today, I sincerely apologize that I cannot give you the answer as I myself have no idea why. My girlfriend advice me to sleep but I lie down on bed and still cannot go to sleep. WHAT IS GOING ON!!!!! SAVE ME..... What I really feel like doing is just taking a knife and slitting my wrist, but I know it will hurt my love ones more deeply. So that idea is off. What should I do? I am now freaking freaking confused and moody. What is going on...Anyways for all that I have said eariler in this post if any of you readers find it funny, stupid or lame I only have this sentence to say to you. Fu*k of and don't ever come back. And for people who knows how I feel and sympathize me I really much appriciate it and thank you sincerely from deep down in my heart. And now as for my love ones. Sorry if I had done things that hurt you. Now I think i'll try to get over this by being alone and just stone, not caring what is going on. Sorry.

Nights~